We’ve made it to 8 weeks!
This week has been a roller coaster of emotions, but the most exciting thing was seeing our baby’s heartbeat. I’ve been in a kind of unbelief about this whole pregancy thing until that appointment. We both looked to that first ultrasound as a milestone . . . is this real?
It was so real, and wonderful, and miraculous. Our baby was there on the screen, heart beating away, just as strong as you please. It was simply beautiful. The doctor said everything looked good, and said, “This little one has been studying the textbook – it’s textbook perfect at this point.” I said, “Oh, Jake, we have a little nerd! I love it!” My doctor and nurse, who’ve been with us through this infertility journey, were so excited, and then my doctor began to dance. She calls it her “smug dance” and I loved it! She said she always waits until this point and then does this dance. I don’t care. We are so thankful for her skills and expertise – she can dance on!
We left the doctor’s office and shared the news with a couple of dear people, and my sister. And then, at home, we couldn’t stop looking at the ultrasound picture. I am simply in amazement of what a miracle life is.
The rest of the week has been a whirlwind of drama. Still thrilled at the update on our baby, Jake and I received news that his father is in the middle of some very serious circumstances. This was very upsetting to Jake’s siblings and family. To put it simply, the relationship between Jake’s father and all four of his children has been . . . difficult. In Jake’s life, there have been extended periods of no contact from his father, years at a time.
So, the worry and concern for his father this week brought with it a wide array of emotions and conversations between his siblings. I’ve said before that Jake is the strongest man I know (like, literally, he can lift ridiculously heavy things like a refrigerator, and in the ways he handles everything in our lives- he is so strong). So, because he is that kind of man, Jake made the decision to go see his father. It was a difficult but good thing. They got to connect, and talk briefly. Jake got to tell his father that he has a new grandchild on the way. I believe that was a moment of grace and hope, for both of them. I’m overwhelmed with the way this week has unfolded and how Love has worked in all of our lives. Redeeming, wonderful Love. Love that creates and restores and makes all things new. At this point, we don’t know what will happen with his father – the outlook is not good. But, we trust in that surprising, redeeming Love to makes things whole. Even broken relationships like this.
“Finish then thy new creation, pure and spotless let us be.
Let us see thy great salvation perfectly restored in thee . . . lost in wonder, love, and praise.”
To top off the week, a totally different celebration of life: my baby sister’s 30th birthday. We always say Ash is like a tornado – she’s a whirlwind of grace, irreverence, style, laughter, and fabulousness! So, tonight we celebrate the tornado! Perfect in this whirlwind week. She has no idea that some of her ATL friends have planned a surprise party for her. I’m SO excited.
And now I must finish the cupcakes.